I could write a book on white trash people. It blows my mind how ignorant they are. Just when you think they can’t surprise you they do.
I have seven uncles. I only talk to one, Bobby. Only because we technically live together. Last night I went to bingo with Juicy (uncles girlfriend). I play the free games because I can’t bring myself to buy losing pieces of paper. I watched her dig out a hidden twenty dollar bill from her wallet as she was explaining to the cashier girl how she hides money from her ” old man” … ( she’s 6 years older then him by the way).
Skanks will spent five dollars.. and win two dollars and want to celebrate.. as if they really won something when in reality they lost money.
Juicy is addicted to bingo, scratch offs, alcohol, food, smoking weed, and her and Bobby are both sex addicts. After bingo I had dinner with them. We sat around the living room eating, and they started talking about lesbians. How Bobby has had threesomes in the past and how Juicy has hooked up with girls as well. Juicy said ” all woman experiment at least once in there lifes…” and she looked at me. I shook my head no and Bobby said ” Yes you have”.
I said ” what are you talking about”!? and he said ” Miranda”. My heart fell into my butt. I couldn’t believe he would bring this up so casually.
What he is referring to was this.. Years ago Bobby was in a relationship with this other white trash named Lucy. Who had a daughter named Miranda. At the time I was four years old and Miranda was nine. She was sleeping over with me one night when we started playing ” doctor and patient”. I was playing the role of patient while Miranda slowly slid my clothes up and down examining me. Back then I didn’t know she was touching my ” private parts”. Then she kissed me and mom walked in. Mom was so freaked out she called Lucy to come pick Miranda up.
And we never saw each other again. When I was sixteen I looked her up on facebook and asked her about it. Because mom had never told me but I remembered it very clearly and just needed it to be confirmed. She confirmed everything, she tried to apologize but I told her she didn’t have to, obviously she was a child too and didn’t understand fully what she was doing.
We talked for a little while and I found out that she had been severely molested by one of my other uncles, David. I had no doubts that she was telling the truth because I have memories as a kid of David asking me and my cousin Ashley to dance for him. He got so frustrated at me one night telling him to leave us alone he punched me in the face. The my cousin Jimmy tried to fight him back but he lost. We were both ten at the time.
David was always the weird uncle to me. He would get drunk and say that the devil was inside him. He would scream and make devil noises. Grandma would have to calm him down. He is currently in prison for raping an under aged girl who ended up pregnant by him. Another cousin i’ll never know. He will be very old when he gets out and I don’t plan on ever seeing him again.
I told Bobby that considering I was four years old I wouldn’t call that experimenting! He can be such a fucking dumbass when he’s drunk. When I got back to my room I called mom to tell her what he had said and that it really embarrassed me. She didn’t know that David had molested Miranda and I kind of feel bad telling her. It’s hard that her brothers are such losers… I think of my brothers and how I would feel if anyone said something bad about them.
Heres the status of all my uncles, in birth order.. Stacy is currently married to my aunt millissa who had a big hand in raising me, he is a very bad alcoholic and so skinny because he never eats, he is wittleing away quickly. My mom is second born. Jimmy who is married to Keri whome I can’t stand. He is a wife and child beater he is hard into drugs and he hates women. Mom and him havnt spoken in years. Terry, just got out of prison for murder, he is already back hard into the drug world again and married this chick named Nina that he’s only know for maybe a month, also hard into drugs and homeless. Bobby is living at my parents motel and working but he cant stop drinking long enough to get ahead. He is dating Juicy who sells dope and weed to all the brothers. Charlie has a beautiful sweet super christian wife and they have three kids together. He is actually some what decent but he can’t hold a job down so they are very poor. Jessie.. who I absolutely hate everything about. He was involved in the Tony Alomo clan so his ways of thinking are completely screwed up. He picked his wife out of a line up.. she is very dark black and they had I think.. seven mixed children.. They only have one today because they had to leave the others in the Tony Alomo house.. its really weird and hard to explain. But more cousins i’ll never know. Then there was Timmy. I never knew him but he was murdered a long time ago by gangsters apparently.
My life could be a movie.. Except they’d have to lie because there are no happy endings.
I need to clean my room.. More thoughts coming your way later.
Again I have to think of people as if they were babies to help me love them again